My Life - Another Way of Viewing It

I have already posted entries of my life in my previous blogs. In this entry, I will concentrate on my spiritual background since childhood.

In hindsight, I believe that I did have a superb childhood, contrary to what I thought when I was still an angry post teener. The activities I joined in during my childhood has affected my view on God, the Bible, and His people.

Yesterday, my Mom told me how I covered my bald head in the church when I was only two years old. And yes, I did remember that I got my head shaven that time and people were trying to feel my head. Reflecting on that incident, I asked myself? What made think that being bald is something to be ashamed of? This is digression already.

Going back to my point. My earliest memories were from a local church we have been attending for seventeen years. All of us siblings have been raised in a Protestant church whose ideals are a fusion of those Evangelicals and Fundamentalist Baptist.

We grew together in a Sunday School, where we met other friends to grow and be friends with. This was the start of my knowledge on God's Word. Little did I know that later on, as I grow (but regress spiritually), I would misuse and abuse His Word for my own ends.

I excelled in Sunday school, garnered awards, special awards. I sang in church. Singing is the very first talent of mine that I discovered.

Looking back, I am thankful for the strong Biblical foundational teachings our Sunday school teachers laid on us. Our head Sunday school teacher before was the wife of our former head pastor. We were taught of almost all the Old Testament stories, we took profiles of each books. We sang a Bible song just for us to memorize the books in order. I just wonder why I have little memories of stories told to us from the book of Acts to Revelations.

As my knowledge grew in time, I found myself drifted away from God. How was that so? Over time, I reckon that what I had is knowledge without wisdom. I have become only a 'hearer' of the Word.

Here I am, after twenty four years of church. It feels like I am back at square one. I have no wisdom and it hurts to realize that you have wasted your college years on worthless activities. This is why I am seeking God. He promised that if I seek Him, I shall find Him. May He bless me with the spiritual journey I am now embarked on.