It is very perplexing! I find myself at the middle of all these madness.....
I am very disappointed with everything right now. My job, the church, myself, name it, you got it.
Only one thing I am very sure of right now - I am no Pentecostal
No matter how I reconcile things, no matter how I pray hard and read the Word, it really doesn't fit in me.
To each his own - I am no longer under anybody's denomination.
Still finding the right job for me. And despite the disappointment in not having one yet, I find the comfort with searching God's truth. I know I will find it. Of course there is no perfect denomination, so I really just have to find one that I can really be myself with. No, I'm not changing religion or anything, but what I am looking for is one that I can relate to.
After years of reflecting, I came to a conclusion that I have different values than that of my mom's. She flourishes in a Pentecostal setup, but I don't because what I seek is a church that is not too showy, not too dynamic, not a church that lean towards prosperity.
I am really offended by prosperity gospel. For a time, I was just accepting the points of it, just getting by. However, as time goes by, I really am still not in agreement with it, more so comfortable with it. And I don't think I will be ever comfortable with it.
This may offend the members of the church I am going to, but the heck with it - I am a very simple person. I have no delusions, nor any plans to get filthy rich or to be in an "abundant" place as so many preachers would encourage their flock to get into. I just wanted to have enough. Enough money so I could help other people, enough assets to just survive. I know that I am not sinning with these thoughts in mind.
